Post by Mama Oak on May 11, 2013 0:26:39 GMT -5
basic identity •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Name: Name Reasoning: Little- prefix to represent smaller stature (she was a tiny, sickly kitten) -cloud suffix to denote gentle nature Gender: She-Cat/Female/XX Age: 25 moons Position: Medicine Cat Clan: ShadowClan capabilities •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Capability Stats:
Strengths: ➝ Herbs & medicine ➝ Amiable & kind ➝ Compassionate & nurturing ➝ Easy to trust & confide in ➝ Speed & stamina ➝ Strong in her beliefs ➝ Always well-meaning w/ good intentions ➝ Other senses heightened due to blindness ➝ Low-adapted, so not confined to the tunnels and can collect herbs that aren't necessarily native to ShadowClan territory ➝ Has an alter-persona that can surface during times of great stress; particularly helpful in the face of a medical emergency or in danger Weaknesses: ➝ Mentally unstable ➝ Emotionally unstable ➝ Has many fears & phobias ➝ Easily frightened ➝ Can be kind of spooky/comes across as weird ➝ Her sanity is sometimes questioned ➝ Naive and easily-misguided ➝ Easily overwhelmed, frequent breakdowns ➝ The obvious disadvantages of being blind Type 1 ShadowClan: Littlecloud has very little adaptions. Being blind, her eyesight is not augmented in anyway. Her claws are strong like all ShadowClanners', but not to the point that they match most. Her mother was a low-adapted feline of questionable lineage, so this is rumored to be a result of dirty and mixed blood. Her sense of smell and hearing surpass those of Type 3 adaption, but this is due to her disability and not owed to any sort of evolution. appearance ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••  Description: Littlecloud is defiantly not a fighter, which is visually portrayed by her thin and delicate structure. She's notably small (hence her name); standing at the average cat's shoulders and done growing. While she isn't exactly weak, her frame lacks any hint of muscle that others' have obtained. Other than being significantly petite, the she-cat's body is quite proportional and appears rather healthy. Her pelt is one of gorgeous tortoiseshell coloring; predominately black with beautiful mottlings and patches of varying orange. The feline's eyes are, undoubtedly, the most startling feature of her physical make-up. Impossibly wide and sightless, they are colored a pale blue. With no visible pupils, they have the uncanny impression of "seeing everything" despite them not seeing anything at all. Littlecloud's posture and demeanor tends to portray her personality to a certain extent. In usual circumstances, she appears quite skittish and timid; always peering over her shoulder, jumping at sudden sounds and even cowering away from raised voices and sudden movements. Her pelt often trembles with an irrepressible tremor and her lips are constantly moving; always mumbling incoherent things beneath her breath. However, when her alter-persona surfaces, the young medicine cat's demeanor undergoes a sudden and quick change. Her posture becomes rigid and confident and her muscles tense in anticipation of action. Her trembling ceases and her jaw tightens; cutting off any spooky mumbling in mid-sentence. Even the she-cat's voice — which is usually hushed and impaired with a stammer — becomes oddly shrill and sharp, also heavily articulated with strange, clipped accents. personality •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Personality: Littlecloud is a small, timid she-cat with a submissive demeanor and quiet nature. She displays hints of paranoia and her sightless vision as well as her initial focus is often warped and twisted with relentless memories of the horrible things she has been subjected to in few moons beneath Honeyleaf's mentoring. For her, the line between the present and the past is often blurred, for she is frequently falling into hazes of torturing remembrance. She can easily be described as meek and sheepish, always shrinking away from raised voices, authoritative figures, or anything that's intimidating or even the slightest bit violent. The blind feline finds herself constantly terrified, reluctant to speak, and uncomfortable around others. She is always wary of other cats intentions and harbors multiple fears and phobias, most of which she doesn't openly speak of. She's haunted and harried; weighed down by a terrible secret that she has been forced to keep for moons. Gruesome thoughts and images — usually pertaining to unsettling things like blood, death, and torture — riddle her dreams every night and she often can't sleep because of them. Despite her being quite young and these questionable quirks, Littlecloud's natural skill as a medicine cat is concrete and dependable. Although somewhat contradicting, this is due to another product of her mental instability. The young feline has somewhat of a "Dissociative Identity Disorder" — due to traumatic events in her history, she developed an alter-persona that surfaces in the face of medical emergency as well as when she is threatened or in danger. When she shifts into this alter, all of her fear and uncertainty disappears. She becomes dominant and confident, quick to react and clear-minded. Although this is a good thing, her alter-persona is also bold, brash, and terribly aggressive. When in this state she is capable of short bursts of rage and is only a tiny push away from being uncontrollably violent. Usually she is able to focus on the matter at hand, but occasionally she can get belligerent and counter-productive. In fact, drawing from the impressions of Honeyleaf that led to the development of the counter-identity... this persona just might be capable of unsettling and terrible things. Most of the odd aspects of Littlecloud's aren't openly displayed. To her clanmates she just seems like a frail, flighty — and perhaps a bit spooky — medicine cat with a tremor and tendency to mumble beneath her breath. She has a reputation for being a feline capable of ample kindness, compassion, and impressive medical caliber when she "focuses". To anyone who speaks to the she-cat or actually tries to get to know her though, it can quickly become obvious that there's something a bit off about her. Specific Moral Values: Littlecloud feels the responsibility of being ShadowClan's healer and would never abandon her clan for anything, even though her heart often yearns to runaway. She holds steadfast to a strong faith in her ancestors, yet she has broken her vows to them by allowing herself to fall in love. history •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Littlekit's mother was a very young, quiet she-cat and chose not to share the identity of her litter's fathering tom. Whether this was out of shame or disdain no one could guess or care, for the youthful queen was not held highly in the clan in the first place due to questionable roots. Upon birthing her five kittens, four of them were stillborn and the last was extremely sickly — left in the care of the medicine cat and expected to die off along with the others. But, to the surprise of many, the tiny kitten grew stronger and lived. Her mother refused her, however, and she was not so strong as to leave the medicine cat den, where she was nursed by an older queen who's milk was close to drying (her own litter already well-aged) and only kept coming by a careful concoction of herbs. Littlekit grew stronger and both her adoptive mother and the medicine cat that looked after her health were convinced she would become an apprentice like any other. That was, until the tortoiseshell-runt first opened her pretty little eyes to reveal unsettling pools of sightless blue, and condemned the rest of her life to the medicine den. The ShadowClan medic had found his apprentice and she was brought up without ever contemplating alternatives. As soon as she could comprehend, she was being taught about applications, treatments, salves, and splints. She learned their scents, the texture of their leaves, and fell naturally into her option-less role as the medicine cat apprentice. By the time she was apprentice-age however, the medicine cat was replaced by another and things began to change. At first she admired him for his uncanny intelligence and had hope, but it soon became apparent that her new mentor would forever shape her future in a way that molded the splintered, haunted feline that she would one day become. Honeyleaf was a feline of dark, morbid tendencies, and his apprentice was often implored to take part. Some of her participation was due to his influential convincing, but mostly fear. There was always an underlying question within her — if she refused or if she spoke, would she simply be next? Littlepaw grew heavier and heavier as her paws became more and more bloodied. The secret she burdened haunted her and she began to host phobias and fears; schizophrenic and paranoid behavior. Her mental health began to deteriorate and, as she neared the edge of a panicked breakdown, she gradually developed an alter-persona; one that coped with Honeyleaf's murders and surfaced when it came time for her assistance. Holding down his victims or cleaning up afterward, this counter-identity "took the reigns" to perform the dirty tasks that Littlepaw's fragile mind couldn't bear. It protected her from the horrors by tucking her away. Honeyleaf left ShadowClan early in her apprenticeship, leaving Littlepaw completely overwhelmed. The clan frequently doubts the she-cat for her age and inexperience, but she tried. She received training from the ThunderClan medicine cat, Grayleaf. Her alter-persona has become a solid part of her, surfacing during emergencies and at times when Littlepaw felt threatened. In the latter moons of her apprentice hood, Littlepaw found herself in BloodClan territory, where she was forced from a terrible downpour into sheltering with a BloodClan apprentice. Stormpaw quickly became an important tom in her life and by the time she received her full medicine cat name, she knew herself to be in love with him. She shared with him the burdensome secret of Honeyleaf, only to find out that her former mentor had become the tyrant of BloodClan under a new name — Rackham. tracking •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Relationships: Mother ➝ Nightcloud ➝ refused her kitten and disappeared almost immediately after birthing Littlekit and her stillborn siblings Father ➝ Unknown Adoptive Mother ➝ Speckledbird ➝ Older queen who nursed Littlekit with the aid of milk-bringing herbs; died early in her kithood Ex-Mentor ➝ Honeyleaf/Rackham Ex-Mentor ➝ Grayleaf Closest Friend/Love Interest/Everything ➝ Stormheart Featured In: Hysteria w/ Stormpaw So Wrong, It's Right w/ Stormpaw & Rackham September Gathering w/ all Clan cats The Stumble & Fall w/ Cloudfrost Strangers w/ Harepaw Everything You Ever w/ Stormheart If I Were To Blink w/ Flowerfur Assignments: Hysteria - Jun/Jul Strangers - Nov/Dec |
