Post by Waffu-Waffu on Jan 19, 2014 23:11:23 GMT -5
Well, this is it, guys. I really thought over my decision, and I waited to cool down before I posted so I would keep my hurtful comments to a minimum, and I highly considered just deleting my account and fading away without any explanation, but I feel as if there is one person who I owe an explanation to, and that I could leave gracefully.
I'm saying goodbye to Fourclans. For a long time at that, and I don't know if I'll ever be coming back, and I hate to leave on a sour note, but I feel after holding back my tongue and keeping most of my personal affairs and emotions off this site that a moment where I let my feelings go is appropriate.
I feel completely and utterly useless here, and that my opinions and ideas just aren't needed anymore, and it's not just from one person. I try to thread with people, and they're just left to rot. I do try reaching out, but it just doesn't work, and I try to talk with people, but I feel left out from the main loop. I'm getting that feel that I'm the ugly duckling here, and while it may be well deserved, it still feels awful considering that I gave a lot of effort into this site and I was the one to keep it breathing in the beginning. Now it's fully operational on its own and after having an extended leave for school and massive bouts of emotional turmoil. I wouldn't say depression, but nonetheless I still closed myself off for weeks at a time and lost a lot of friends and people I though cared for me, including those on this site.
I made a short return when I had a heartfelt conversation with Blizzy, who is still my greatest and I feel now, only, friend here. She handled business professionally and out friendship happily, and I really feel comfortable leaving her here to take care of things. But I tried to few times to get back in the groove of things and ask people for help, but I constantly got shoved to the side and put off and I just gave up after a while, and while that is my fault for not continuing to try, I felt as if it was shoving my moping self onto others. So I shut up and tried to find my way (unsuccessfully). I tried to suggest ideas, but they were shot down so quick it should have been a world record.
And so here I am, realizing that my awful attitude has made me cry over this site multiple times, and that I just do not have the energy to do it again. I tried to thread and I often posted that I was perfectly free, but I just got ignored, and I just figured that no one wanted to talk to a mopey person like me on this site.
I reached out a lot, and I've sent out check ups on people, but I would have liked to receive the same grace without asking for it. That however, isn't the problem. I'm used to caring for myself and dealing with my own emotions (again, unsuccessfully) and I was more worried about all my sugar cubes here being cared for and having them know that someone cared when no one else did. I wanted to make sure there was always one smiling face that wouldn't be judgmental as long as there was some courtesy shown, and that everyone at least felt as if they could talk with me if they wanted to, and that they could thread with me if that was their wish, but some things just didn't work out. That's how life is though.
Again, I may be making things way over dramatic, and I do not need to be fussed at, as I gave an honest effort to this site. You cannot ever tell me that I gave no effort. I threaded and while I lost my muse for one or two, I have a few open ones that haven't been touched, I decided that I have outgrown this site, and I will be moving on. I tried so very hard, but it just didn't work out, and so I leave this site. I will be deleting my account in a few days.
Someone please kill Lakesong off in a graceful way, preferably involving Lionstar or one of Blizzy's cats. I will be using him elsewhere, but he is dead to this site.
If anyone would like to speak with me, I have my Deviantart and my SNK OC tumblr you may follow, if you would like to. Both links are below.
I suppose I had a good time here. Some were good and some were bad, but I can't say I'll ever forget this site. It's been a wild ride guys. Some of you have a wonderful future in store and I wish those the best of luck.
ask-thepyraliskids.tumblr.com/
pimpin-waffle.deviantart.com/
I'm saying goodbye to Fourclans. For a long time at that, and I don't know if I'll ever be coming back, and I hate to leave on a sour note, but I feel after holding back my tongue and keeping most of my personal affairs and emotions off this site that a moment where I let my feelings go is appropriate.
I feel completely and utterly useless here, and that my opinions and ideas just aren't needed anymore, and it's not just from one person. I try to thread with people, and they're just left to rot. I do try reaching out, but it just doesn't work, and I try to talk with people, but I feel left out from the main loop. I'm getting that feel that I'm the ugly duckling here, and while it may be well deserved, it still feels awful considering that I gave a lot of effort into this site and I was the one to keep it breathing in the beginning. Now it's fully operational on its own and after having an extended leave for school and massive bouts of emotional turmoil. I wouldn't say depression, but nonetheless I still closed myself off for weeks at a time and lost a lot of friends and people I though cared for me, including those on this site.
I made a short return when I had a heartfelt conversation with Blizzy, who is still my greatest and I feel now, only, friend here. She handled business professionally and out friendship happily, and I really feel comfortable leaving her here to take care of things. But I tried to few times to get back in the groove of things and ask people for help, but I constantly got shoved to the side and put off and I just gave up after a while, and while that is my fault for not continuing to try, I felt as if it was shoving my moping self onto others. So I shut up and tried to find my way (unsuccessfully). I tried to suggest ideas, but they were shot down so quick it should have been a world record.
And so here I am, realizing that my awful attitude has made me cry over this site multiple times, and that I just do not have the energy to do it again. I tried to thread and I often posted that I was perfectly free, but I just got ignored, and I just figured that no one wanted to talk to a mopey person like me on this site.
I reached out a lot, and I've sent out check ups on people, but I would have liked to receive the same grace without asking for it. That however, isn't the problem. I'm used to caring for myself and dealing with my own emotions (again, unsuccessfully) and I was more worried about all my sugar cubes here being cared for and having them know that someone cared when no one else did. I wanted to make sure there was always one smiling face that wouldn't be judgmental as long as there was some courtesy shown, and that everyone at least felt as if they could talk with me if they wanted to, and that they could thread with me if that was their wish, but some things just didn't work out. That's how life is though.
Again, I may be making things way over dramatic, and I do not need to be fussed at, as I gave an honest effort to this site. You cannot ever tell me that I gave no effort. I threaded and while I lost my muse for one or two, I have a few open ones that haven't been touched, I decided that I have outgrown this site, and I will be moving on. I tried so very hard, but it just didn't work out, and so I leave this site. I will be deleting my account in a few days.
Someone please kill Lakesong off in a graceful way, preferably involving Lionstar or one of Blizzy's cats. I will be using him elsewhere, but he is dead to this site.
If anyone would like to speak with me, I have my Deviantart and my SNK OC tumblr you may follow, if you would like to. Both links are below.
I suppose I had a good time here. Some were good and some were bad, but I can't say I'll ever forget this site. It's been a wild ride guys. Some of you have a wonderful future in store and I wish those the best of luck.
ask-thepyraliskids.tumblr.com/
pimpin-waffle.deviantart.com/